TW - I think you need to start with the e-Book then TOXIC Men, I did that and it is working great for me, Toxic men is not only about men, it is mostly about us women, and how we draw toxic men because of our toxic theme in life, this program is great to make you know this stranger in you who pushes and whine and make a mess out of our lives without us even noticing,
So it is about YOU first not him …always dalways think that what you are doing is for your own well-being not for him or any other…YOU ARE the MOST important Person in the whole issue NO ONE should come before you !!
I am intending to buy after the “Reconnect your relationship” and it is also about ( as I understood ) how to deal with Me to be able to deal with him …no matter who this HIM is whjether my husband my ex or my colleagues at work or whomever…
I want to be ME and I will work on it…so please TW just remember you are doing this for you, YOU my dear
Take care and bless you and your 2 men

Jen-B,
This guy is all about himself, I am so sorry for he is worried about what your friends are thinking and NOT how YOU ARE FEELING and that IS SCREAMING selfish and self-centered, besides don’t you think it is a bit LATE for him to feel awful about what he did ?
For me it is like my ex NAte all over, you know what just drop him, do not even think of friendship, just let go of him and continue working on yourself and your life be happy, and after either he will be back KNOWING and appreciating you as you should be appreciated and loved or another man with realize that you are a GEM that he does not want to lose !
Do not bother about this guy, he seems emotionally unstable, and immature !
Just let go of him and Continue with your life and never feel guilt, you have the right to confide and say the truth to your friends about what happened, if he does not like it and feels hurt THEN IT IS TIME FOR HIM to Step up to the plate and do what a REAL man should do and be a mature responsible person, and stop his childish behavior!
As far as you’re concerned HIS problems are his it is not your JOB to take care of him, on the contrary he is the one who needs to give, you only give back, he does not like it this way, then let him leave you alone and in peace, Keep your boundaries and stay on your bridge…many men would dream of having a steady future with a wonderful woman like you ….PLEASE do not forget this very important fact, he is not the last man on earth …Just keep on trusting your intuition and yourself, I myself do not feel he is trustworthy…and whether he is reading this blog or not …you should not care what he THINKS but how he is ACTING …
Take care dear

Samat,

\How old is he ? was he married before and have children? you know sometimes men do not really know what they want until they get it, or they don’t …
if he wasn’t married and had no children, maybe he doies not want the responsibility ? some men do not have this fatherhood fabric woven into them.,… I dunno…maybe the ladies also would give you more explanation…
Do not worry dear it is not about Loving you or not, basically it is about the man and his level of selfishness …if I am not mistaken,and of course Rori is the best person to advise you on this.

Take care all of you
With Love and warm hugs
God bless you all
Clara

I don’t see why Rori’s Tools wouldn’t work on non-man-related situations as well.

i want to know i am true to myself and beautiful. if i were talking outloud pretending i was talking to rori again this is what i would say. i want to be over my family trauma. i am tired of it. i want to be completely healed of it and live the rest of my life whole and healthy and free. i want to spend my time doing satisfying things and having fun and growing in a positive way. not growing in a way a holocaust survivor learns about spirituality by living through hell perpetrated by backward humans.

the battery on my phone is going to die. i want love to protect me while i am at that job. thank you stacey for providing me with the protection of love and the food of joy for your soul. tomorrow you will go into work and be wonderfully surprised and loved and cared for. your welcome. i love you/me.

It’s great to read about all of you…
I’m so glad…

Clara & Lin… after reading what you guys tweak about TW’s messages helped me understand a lot… I would be talking like how TW is if I were to talk to him… but most of the time we are communicating through msn chatting.

There is a turn in my r/s now and I feel frozen… I dunno how to handle it and it is stressing me out. I feel like i am going to explode…

The last I told you guys that we became friends before I return… (I figured it is true what Rori and all of you said… if there is no propose for the future… I should just be friends with him…) and when I return, I found his email about how terrible he felt and I am all confused about him being one person from afar and another person from near.

Since I came back, I focused on me… and I did have a lot to do and preparing for work next year… I am jet lagged, tired, feeling like I’m gonna fall sick… I still haven’t even finish unpacking… I have drawn away from him and have not contacted him on msn and all… The first time I decided to say Hi was a few days back when he signed in. It was casual chatting… we did went into talking about some of the problems we faced during the trip. He got a lil upset and said it’s fine, we will stay as friends and I just took that and moved on. I felt my heart closing and far from him… I had such a bad experience during the trip of how he treated me and I do not want to feel that from anyone ever again.

We chatted again last night and he told me that he couldn’t take it as us just being my friend and seeing me moving on wif my life. He said he doesn’t want to look like the stupid guy in front of my friends… and what I told them really bothered him. He had no idea what I told my friends … (I wondered if he…checked out tis website and saw my email…) cos he dun know my friends actually… only one. The fact that his image is being tarnished and there will be no support from my friends and they will be looking him in a different light, really bothered him bad… ( I really dun understand why is this) I asked him why it matter so much about what my frens think rather than what I thot abt him. He was silence and jus told me that it just mattered. Sigh…

What am I to do??? Not talk to my frens and share my feelings when I’m hurting? They care and wanna find out about me and how the trip went. All of them were so excited that I’m back and assumed I had a great time… am I suppose to lie to them? He was upset that I didn’t defend him and he said he would never do that to me… What am I to do here??

Then he told me that perhaps it is better that we cancel out on each other’s lives… never to speak again cos he cant take me as just friends and he is hurting. He was hurt that I didnt give him a benefit of a doubt for how he reacted… (I told him I did and I hung on for 2 months !)

He told me he saw a therapist and he told him what he felt was normal… how he withdraw away out of fear… n we didn’t have time apart for him to think, digest and ponder… I was always there in the house and he didnt know what to do wif me and that stressed him out a lot. There was no normal dating… after being apart for 6 months, we agreed to meet again and I went to look for him and suddenly I was there… it was too fast for him and 3 months is a long time. (I wanted to shorten the trip due to some reason but he insisted 3 months before I came.) Anyways, when I did arrive… he said he didnt know what to do…

He said he was all stressed up so he reacted the way he did. (not wanting to hold my hands, kissing, the coldness… the anger & frustration that I often felt and I felt unwanted and terrible…) So after I left and he had time to digest everything and think, he felt terrible and missed me dearly.

So here is my problem… I am confused and I feel myself withdrawing from him. When I talk to him over msn… I do not feel comfortable… I feel that I dun trust him… my defenses are up so high and I feel that I can’t trust him… I do not want to hurt the way I did… and I dunno how we will be like… What do I do? He didn’t say it that he want me back as his girl… but just said he doesn’t want to be some friend. I did tell him I feel that unless we have a plan to be in the same location to grow this r/s it’s gonna be so hard. He kept saying I have made up my mind to move on so we should just be cut off cos he can’t bare that pain and he is hurting. I told him I have not made up my mind…

Then I told him I needed a break to the bathroom and when I came back, our msn conversation changed course and it became lighter… and good… he sent me stuff through the internet and asked about my life…

What do I do…. I’m scare to have a long distance r/s… I feel like we should just stay as frens until we can be in the same location… I dun wanna put my heart in and being so far… I dun want to tink of him as something else in my head and then in reality…to turn out different again. (Or perhaps he is the person I know over internet but like the therapist said… he froze?) I feel like I dun wanna put myself in that position anymore… I dun like the way he put me down when I was there… I dun want to discover after months of great r/s afar and then when we meet, it’s a different story… What do I do?? Call it quits? Move on? Or just be friends…?? What happens if he doesn’t wanna be friends… I hate to lose him as a friend…

I dun wanna be wrong in this and come back to see that I have lost someone who might have been… or am I wrong…

I seriously feel so stressed up now… I dunno what to believe and where to go… I feel that I need time… and I dunno how to trust him… it’s just a lot of uneasy feeling… I dunno if I have stopped loving him.. or it’s just a lot of bad experience crowding me… what do I do??

I really appreciate any support or insights from you girls…. I so need that now…

reshi you are so brave! and courageous and honest. you’re willingness to go through this moves me.

caj 13 i like what had you had to say about your relationship to your own anger. i think everyone struglles with how to handle/process thier anger. i mean one look at the world around us tells us this is true. i used to be ashamed of mty anger but since rori has now offered me a way to process thru it and i don’t hurt anyone i don’t lash out at anyone i can truly feel the power behind it and just keep riffing into i really turn it around and then deal with the situation at hand. i think this would be esp important for me with people i truly care about so i do not hurt them in anger and irreprably dmage the love between us. well not the love. you can’t damage love. but the delicate nature of human relationships.

i am going to be the best girlfriend bc i will know exactly what i like and how to already please myself and so whatever little gestures the man makes i can be pleased by bc it won’t be a lifetime of me having waited for HIM. poor sap that would have been.

and i was researching what restaurant i want to take myself to. i still think that is very hard. that whole restaurant thing. i have sooo much more empathy and compassion for a man now. i am a woman doing it for myself and i feel pressured and a little put out and how do i do it and will i like it and do i want to make the effort and is it worth it. of course my answer comes back yes. which raises my worth and value in my own eyes. thus in the man of my dreams as well. my ex has been on my mind. not sure if bc nobody else is interesting to me or if bc we would make a good pair. i miss the sex. oh well i could have it if i wanted so obviously i miss having a real manly man romantic guy who doesn’t want to lose me more than some emotionally stifled sex only NO ROMANCE whatever.

i am having fun branching out my own life. taking babysteps into activities i like. actually has kept me pretty busy as well. and i am getting back into good shape. i am enjoying life. even without HIM. in fact sometimes i feel like ilve got bigger things going on than letting my brain fuss about a man who is not even stepping up. i think i will make a good girlfriend. more balanced and not so unhealthily focussed on a man and what he thinks and blah blah. my focus often is now what is this person offering me? i know what i’m bringing to the table. what are they offering. oh a big plate of i can serve him. ick no. a clarity i never had. even in relationships with anyone that are not romantic. i used to be so focussed on what do they think of me. i hope they think i’m nice. well f off people. i am not nice. NICE! nice? no. i am fierce and i am soft. would you like a slice of that bc that is what i am offering. and if all you are offering me is your narcissistic vampiric feed on my energy then i am absolutely 100 % not interested.
i feel content.

Riffing:
I feel scared and confused. I feel lonely sometimes. I feel that it would be nice to have someone to share my life with, but scared of getting too attached again. A hug would feel good, maybe even kisses. I want to feel warm and safe and secure. I want to feel loved by someone other than me. But I feel scared and it feels like panic and fear and a lump in my throat. It feels like my stomach being shaken. I love my tight feeling throat and my jumpy stomach. I love my fear and loneliness and needs. I love loving myself but want to feel adored, even though when I can have this I just feel scared. I feel afraid of receiving from men as it has always been me giving giving giving and this feels safe and comfortable as I am used to it. I feel uncomfortable and teary and maybe just a little excited that I can still inspire men to be attracted to me, even though my ex still ignores me and avoids me. I feel worried that I will compare this new guy to my ex and he won’t measure up. I feel scared that I will reject him either now or when I move interstate and he will disappear. I feel worried and scared about losing his friendship. He is a good friend. I want to feel brave and courageous so I can tell him how I really feel and not hurt him but I fear he will be hurt anyway. I feel confused as why he asked me when he knows that I am moving soon.
I feel that maybe I am not good at Riffing things out yet but reading Daria’s posts really helps with this. Thanks for listening guys!

xoxoxo

To my understanding, orgasm only depletes life energy if you are a man–that is why they fall asleep after sex and why Tantric practices teach men to orgasm without ejaculating. That is also why I perhaps ought to have been more understanding of my husband when he did not want to have sex nearly as often as I did. Hindsight = 20/20. I had a talk with him today as we were packing the last of my stuff, it was amusing. I said something along the lines of “Next time, I want a man who doesn’t disappear and stop romancing me the minute after the wedding. What do you suggest I do? Just not be mean when the guy isn’t in the mood for sex?” He was like “Yeah, pretty much.” I was like “OK then.” Apparently, two instances of meanness on my part during the honeymoon completely destroyed any desire on his part to ever do anything romantic for me again–and then of course I had a hundred thousand reactions to the lack of romance, some stuffed-down and sarcastic, some openly belligerent. I can pretty well see how I destroyed the love that we had.

I’ll be keeping this in mind so that the next deserving guy to come along is better off, and remains able and willing to come toward me and romance me for the rest of our lives.

I feel tired. I feel bored. I can think of nothing to do that would feel good that doesn’t involve a man. I actually called a man today and I still feel bored. Not worse but not better. I feel dragged down. That feels like hunched over shoulders, like droopy sides of mouth. I love my shoulders and my mouth sides. That feels like my mouth sides lifting up and hmph noises. That feels like breathing a deep breath. That feels like sinking into sadness. It feels like my shoulders hunching over again. It feels like disappointment from my men. And that feels like hunched shoulders and droopy sides of mouth. I love my hunched shoulders and droopy sides of mouth. And that feels like smiling again, it feels like smiling harder. And I feel a tighness in my chest. I love my chest tightness. I love my hunched shoulders. It feels like they are hunched again and my sides of my mouth are dropping again. That feels disappointment. It feels like annoyance of going round in circles. It feels like weakness. That feels like hunched shoulders and sighs through my nose. I love my sighs through my nose. I love my hunched shoulders. I love my droopy sides of mouth. And my tight feeling tummy. I feel angry. I feel angry my life feels so boring. I feel like going to sleep hoping that I will dream something better. Something more fun where men are not sick with conjunctivitis, and where I don’t have to call them to talk to them. I feel ashamed. I feel ashamed of myself for calling. And that feels like tight forearms, it feels like breathing out my nose in sighs like exasperation, it feels like the corners of my mouth are down. I feel dragged down by my arms, like some creature from the lagoon is dragging me down into the swamp. And I am letting myself get dragged and that feels like crying. I feel like small sobs and no tears. I love my small sobs, my tearless sobs. They are so romantic. I love my droopy shoulders. I love my tense mouth corners. I feel gross. I feel disappointed. I feel like just laying back here… I feel so disappointed with the men in my life. I feel like a heavy heavy puddle of disappointment. I love my feeling like a puddle. I love my disappointment. And that feels like a light bittersweet smile. I love my smile. I love my loneliness. I love my voices yelling that I am not doing any better than before. That feels like my eyes wanting to close. I love my closing eyes. It feels like my mouth sides are weighed down, as if there were heavy diamonds attached to them. I love my drooping mouth sides. That feels like them lifting a little bit. And I love the tightness in my forehead. I love the heaviness in my shoulders. I love the tightness in my chin and mouth. I feel pulses in me. I love my pulses. I feel like I cannot tolerate these spinning sad feelings. And I love myself. I know I can tolerate them. I love my feelings. I love ]feeling sad and I feel OUTraged that I feel sad. I want to be happy, and I love that part of me too. I feel like I am my stranger, gray and lifeless. And I love her and me. I Want to give her a rose. She takes the rose and holds it down. She feels curious and sniffs the rose. She smiles and I feel like smiling. She is giving me a box. Inside the box is a diamond ring. I take the ring and put it on. I feel afraid that this means I am engaged to my stranger. I want to feel good about that. Thank you. I love both parts of me. That feels like a big sigh. I give my stranger a hug. Shes smiling. I feel bored still. I can feel the heaviness in my chest. My stranger comes to me. She reaches her bony skeleton finger to my chest. It feels ok. My chest now grows a flower where she touched it. It is a purple flower, which is my favorite color. I can smell the flower when I want to. I feel like smiling. I am starting to feel better, and that feels like laughing. I am laughing and I love my laughter. I pick my stranger up and twirl her. She is laughing too with her yellow tooth skeleton smile. I love her. Thank you. I feel like smiling. My leg feels tingly. I feel like going out and doing something, and that feels like a tightness in my forehead. I feel like sinking again. And I am back. My stranger kisses me on the cheek. That feels weird. It feels soft and sweet. Thank you. I feel a little awkward and shy. I feel tingly in my leg still. I love my tingliness. I love my shyness and awkwardness. And that feels like smiling. I want to feel special today. I feel a little unspecial. I want a massage and attention. I feel like I am not goint to get it, and that feels sad and resigned. I feel like I am always sad and resigned, because I don’t get what I want from other people. From myself yes, but I don’t want massages or attention from myself. That feels sad. I feel sad. I am SUPPOSED to want massages and attention from myself. How boring. That feels like watching a cartoon Bugs bunny yawn. I am yawning too. I love my yawns. I love my confusion. I love my cravings. I feel like smiling. I feel stuck. I love my stuckness. I love the heat in my thigh. I love that my ankles always cross and it feels like I don’t have enough energy. I love my boredom which gives me images of a girl throwing stuff around her room. I love my inner rage. Thank you. I love my throwing stuff. Thank you. I feel like yawning. I love my yawns. I love the fog I feel around my brain when I try to think of something fun to do. I love how I think of hanging out with guys and feel disappointed by my thoughts. I love my thoughts. I love my disappointment. I love how boring readinga book sounds. I love how I want to do addictive behaviors like smoking. I love feeling limp. I love my yawns. I love how I feel mad that this guy who asked me out for today flaked. I love this feeling of boredom. It feels like sitting in the chair in my pjamas. It feels like gross and stickyiness under my shirt. It feels like unwashed skin. I love my grossness stickiness and unwashed skin. It feel like conking out and going to sleep. I love my sleepiness. It feels like limp face, staring out eyes. I love my staring out eyes. I love my limp face. It feel like yawning and I love my yawns too. I feel stuck. I feel much better but not good enough to think of something fun. I feel so disappointed in myself. I love my disappointedness. I feel shaky inside, in my tummy. I feel my energy going to my head, to my thoughts and running around. I am picking up objects to feel them… it feels like too full tummy, closing eyes. It feels like smoothness on my finger. I love my full tummy, my closing eyes. I love my tiredness. I feel like laying down now. I feel like yawning… I love my yawns and my feeling like laying down… I am going to lay down even though a part of me doesn’t want to lay down. I love that part of me too. Apart of me wants to feel energized, excited to go out and do something fun. That part of me wants attention from other people. I love my craving for attention. That feels like being right, like confusion too. I love my confusion and smugness. I love my closing sleepy eyes. I love the part of me that wants to go out too. I am going to lay down…

I know exactly what you mean about finding courage when you’re in a corner, and then it seems to decline! Don’t worry I think that’s everybody, definitely is me too! But right now you are very courageous, and in fact you have been this whole time I remember how hard you worked to get here. And you look very courageous to all of us I am sure. You are inspiring!

PS thank you for the floozy comment. I know you are a sexual Goddess and not so prude unless you want to be and express that part of your goddess self. I too get hung up on a man when I have sex… again this is probably all of us except for when we are in Rockstar status. So that is most of the reason I want to experiment. I think it would be fun to have rockstar status and I want to see if I can do it… so I am definitely walking the line for heartbreak, but I feel like I am doing pretty well this time…

Anyway I am not worried about that man today… I don’t feel like calling him and since he hasn’t called me (he texts and my phone screen is broken so I can’t see it - LOL)… I am going out to enjoy the sunshine.

Here something bothering me… I read on a certain website that seemed very thorough… that women self pleasuring ourselves to orgasm lowers our life force… and that has been stuck in my head ever since. I can’t seem to prove to myself that it is or not true, but I always feel like I might be harming my health by doing this… I can give the website, but man it would feel good to find out it’s not true.! What a thorn in the side of pleasure.

I am hoping to get some help with what is taking place right now in my relationship. I think what I am going through will sound familiar to a lot of people.
My husband called on Thanksgiving. We talked about me possibly moving to be with him. We had a nice calm conversation about the fact that it may be difficult for us because he is incredibly busy. We also talked about some of the things we will each not allow to happen again. Mine was that I would not stay if he called names when he gets angry. He does this often because this is how he was raised. I told him that I feel hurt and sad when he does this. My husband did not see anything wrong with it and shut down for a few minutes of the conversation. I was able to bring him back to the conversation using feeling messages. He ended by telling me he would call me at 10 the next morning. I has been 2 days and he still has not called. I am leaning back because he said that he would call. But, I am concerned because he does not understand why name calling and not calling when he said he would is not ok. I do not feel that I am being unreasonable by setting the boundary of no name calling or by expecting him to call when he said he would (or at least call to apologize for not doing it). Am I right by not calling?

I cried through the whole movie.. I was so glad I was all alone watching it… enjoy… !!
Hugs to you,
Lin

Like if he calls and you do feel like talking to him, then talk and do not resort to texting, but you need to follow your feelings and STICK to YOU and keep your boundaries!

Let’s tweak a little bit your conversation :

(Your text)- I really do not feel like talking right now. I really don’t know what to say.

My tweak - I do not feel I have anything to say to you, I do not feel connected with you….I feel disconneted with you…

Your text - he will more than likely respond by saying: Are you mad at me
My response would be “I’m not mad but I’m not stupid either”

Tweak - I feel disconnected ( emphasis on this phrase) not mad at you.

Your text - Then of course he would ask me what I mean or do I still love him and my response would be “you never have to question my love for you but I feel as though I have to question your love for me all the time. It is not about whether I love you or not but about respect, honesty, and trust. It’s about feeling as though you are a part of someone’s life.

Tweak - I do not want to answer this kind of questions, what do you think I mean ? I do not mean, I feel simply !I feel now that Love is not only a matter of meaning and giving! I feel Love, I live Love when there’s TRUST, HONESTY, RESPECT, COMMUNICATION and CONNECTION, all reciprocated and mutual…. I feel that sharing this important part of the love I have in my heart and is imprisonned in my heart for there are no reciprocity, no sharing…it feels like I am pouring my fountain of love in a limitless cold ocean,or a bottomless well, rather than in a cup wanting my waters of love, hence why I feel disconnected with you !
I Feel I have the right to be an important if not the most important part of my man’s life, and giving back love would be my pleasure, but I do not feel this way right now, I do not feel I am an important part in your life, I feel a barrier, a wall, a nonchalance, I feel disconnected… that is what I feel, and I cannot explain what I mean, it is up to you to understand my feelings, as much as it is not my job to understand your behavior, I just feel your actions and their effect on me…
I feel I love you but I also feel I do not like to be taken for granted because of the way I feel…

And Of course all of you ladies please add your wonderful insight and inspiration, our TW needs us now so please let’s help one another, tweak also my tweaking …and help me too

Thank you Lin, you are a wonderful person yourself, and I have learnet alot from you, when you helped me and I think you need to tweak also my tweaking … I am just so new in these feeling messages and power speeches that i am afraid of making things worse rather than helping !!

TW I wish you all the best in this coming experience, take it as it comes, do not be afraid, another experience to add, another fear to face, another lesson to learn, another feeling to feel totally and not absorb but live fully, whether happy or sad, it is part of us, our feelings belongs to us, and we are PROUD of who we are, we are proud of what we did, do and will do, we are proud to BE who we are, just let your feelings speak for you…I will pray for your inspiration and flowing of your feelings in all fluidity, lightness and straight fron your heart to his …
May God bless you and assist you
With Love and warm hugs
Clara

Daria, I don’t want to make you feel like a floozy…lol…take my advice with a huge grain of salt, Reshi is a big prude you know. And if he’s just one of many and you aren’t hung up on him…man I wonder what it would be like to have sex with someone and not be hung up on him…never had that experience, I’m hung up on someone after a kiss, if I’m attracted to him at all.

I’m really not so brave, I’m making a new life for myself because I am backed into a corner and have no choice. If I was really brave I think I would have left a year ago. But now I get to find out what I’m really made of, and see if I can’t FIND courage and strength. I always seem to find courage and strength when I’m backed into a corner…then when I’m safe and loved and protected I seem to decline, to retreat into a shell. And that almost certainly makes a man fall out of love. The challenge is holding on to my strength while I let a man protect and love me.

I feel he has to feel like he let you down and he deserves to feel he lost your affection.. and attention.. as he did not give you any all hoilday weekend. If he did nothing for you and your realatioship all weekend…and still has your love.. ? If you ignored someone.. and then heard they still love you.. how would you feel?
What does he have to work for…? I am sure Clara will help you with the feeling messages.

However… I feel sad, I feel scared, I feel disconnected from you and our relationship at this time.. when he asks…. do you still love me.
would be a better response…
How does that feel ?…. more powerful ?
Hugs to you. I know this is a hard time.
Lin

He will call and I will not answer but will respond by text

(my text)- I really do not feel like talking right now. I really don’t know what to say.

he will more than likely respond by saying: Are you mad at me

My response would be “I’m not mad but I’m not stupid either”

Then of course he would ask me what I mean or do I still love him and my response would be “you never have to question my love for you but I feel as though I have to question your love for me all the time. It is not about whether I love you or not but about respect, honesty, and trust. It’s about feeling as though you are a part of someone’s life.

It is sad how I know in my head how the conversation will go but I know him like that. We text back and forth sometimes at work and I did not get to in depth with the I feels but just left it general to make him think about how he is acting. Notice, I have not sent these but I know I will have to talk to him some time next week. Do you think Ishould respond to his text like I did above or should I not say anything. I am asking advice before it happens because I know it will happen.

so i decided my first dinner date will be planned and it will NOT be on a saturday night and it will be somewhere i am pretty sure I will like and i want to dress nice for it bc that is part of the fun of date night for me.

i can take myself to casual places to eat but not really nice places. but i am going to break through that barrier. it’s hard being a boy. it’s so easy to be a girl. but whatever boys like things hard that’s why they chose to be boys. girls like things easy. i mean i like my challenges but not the same way as a boy. and even being half man as i am i still don’t like the challenges of being a boy.

anyway it’s just a take on rori’s images and also someone had contributed about the sparkling bubbles and this one just was clear to me. oh yes. this is what she (rori)means. i feel this is great progress for me that this is what my mind is coming up with spontaneously in it’s free time. it’s not like